6 Months old

What a big girl!

Madilyn is 6 months old now and I have no idea where the time has gone. Today is my 20th birthday, 11 days from now is Thanksgiving and in 36 days is Christmas but 4 days before that is my ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! WOW! Then Alex will be 22 in January and then DeAnna's lil girl will be born in February and then Madilyn will be ONE in MAY...AHHH!!! Geesh, time flies when....you're living..haha. Madilyn is already one wild child. She is dramatic, hyper, happy, whinny, silly, playful, energetic, and loving. She really is the most amazing baby I have ever been around. If you have been near her, you know how she can just melt your heart with a lil smile. She has been the best blessing to this family and a life saver for the past two weeks. My grandfather was in the hospital for two weeks before he eventually pasted away 2 saturdays ago. Madilyn and I were at the hospital everyday and I know that baby girl brightened the day of so many people. She has no idea how she was the best distraction ever. I love her so much. She behaves so well, its amazing. She was a lighthouse in a very dark and gloomy place, where hope was not around often and certain death was. So many families where making choices of pulling the plug and when they were sure their day was certainly depressing, they would walk in and see a beautiful smiling baby with such joy and innocence in her eyes. Grandpaw Causey, You were an amazing man. You were funny and smart, witty and caring. You are missed so much here but we all can't wait to join your side again in Heaven. Thank you for all the wonderful times and thank you for all the times you picked me up from school. I love you always, tell Grandpaw Dyer I said I miss and love him too! Take care and I hope I make you proud!

14lbs 8oz...WOW

~She's a big girl now...wooo!~

=) Maddie Waddie is getting to be a lil chunk! I call her the chunkmiester! Well I guess there is just more to love! None of us can get enough of her! She is absolutely the apple of ALL our eyes! She loves people and shinny things! She knows her name and smiles at everyone. She is just a joy and is just a mover and a shaker! Madilyn makes tons of noises and sounds that makes us all laugh so hard. She is just always in a good mood. Everyone wants to hold her. I tell you, it is exhuasting having a cute baby! She is almost 5 months old (on tuesday she will be) and she finally is in size 1 diapers and she wears 3-6 months and 6 months because she has a very long torso. She has BIG blue eyes and she will bat her eyes at you, it's funny. She grabs everything now and is strong so you have to fight her to get it back. She is sleeping in her crib now which I am adjusting to her not being safely in the room with me. She loves to play on the floor with her toys and glance at me or the TV. She is just so interactive and interested in everything. She is a smart cookie. We all love her so much, and I the most! Whenever you hold her, you just want to squeeze her, she is too cute! She spits up more so I am changing her like 8 times a day and doing a load of laundry every couple of days..haha. The other day she was chewing on a plastic spoon while her grandma was holding her and she stuck it too far back and got upset. Well I took her and was trying to calm her down and she looked up at me and said while crying "maamaa" and then she rubbed her face into my shirt and looked up at me again and said "mama." She did that several times and none of us could believe it! It was amazing! I was lil in shock, I could not even admit she said it but she did! It makes me so excited to think of it now! I love her soo much! She is just amazing! Seeing how God can create an amazing baby girl like that..wow..I just give Him the glory for her!

Motherhood

Motherhood means in between changing her clothes and yours after she spits up, changing diapers, feedings, playtime, and nap time you have a few moments to either sleep, shower, eat or clean. Motherhood means being woken up at 2 or 3 in the morning when you had just laid down at midnight. Motherhood means bouncing, rocking, making silly faces and noises, tickling, and kissing till she smiles or laughs. Motherhood mean giving up your day to make hers special. Motherhood means being the one who can make it all better when the baby powder is knocked over and falls on her head. Motherhood means getting priceless smiles in the morning or after a nap when she wakes up. Motherhood means she calms down when she gets put back in your arms. Motherhood means sitting there watching her breathe as she sleeps because you care so much. Motherhood means washing loads of blankets and outfits from a messy baby. Motherhood means feeling like you have the whole world in your arms as you rock her to sleep. Motherhood means having the best job in the world.


I love motherhood. It's my favorite job. Yes I get little sleep, yes I get aggravated and worn-out but it is so worth it in the end. Madilyn has become quite the talker and it very active. She loves to be played with and she has a very funny personality and she is quite the character. She is getting bigger and bigger very week and changing all the time. She rolls over now and I am very proud of her. We went the beach last week and she LOVED the water and sand. She is just adorable. She is so loving and fun! It is just a blast to spend time with her. She makes some crazy noises and it is just hilarious. I love her at this age but I can't wait to see what she grows up to be like..I pray like Christ.

10 lbs 2 oz and counting!!!

She is my lil chunk now!

I love my baby girl so impossibly much! That so made no sense but it's true! She is a wonderful blessing and I just cannot get enough of her! My days are wrapped around her every need and I would not have it any other way! She is laughing now and it is soooo adorable! I love it when she cackles! She has rolled over already with a lil help from the couch. She can hold her bottle on the rare occasion that she has one. Madilyn is just growing every day and getting bigger. She actually has some thighs now but still no behind! haha! She is starting to wear some 0-3 months but newborn still fits her best and she is still in NB diapers. Madilyn is still just a wonderful baby who is rearely fussy. She has recently been getting some cases of "mama-tosis" and only wants me! Doesn't give me a break but it is nice that she only wants me! =) I know all moms think they have a beautiful baby but seriously, Maddie is just gorgeous! I am quite proud I must say! She is also just FULL of an interesting personailty, she gets upset if there is no one to give her attention when she wants it!

8 lbs 10 oz

yeah! She's just a growing! To me she is already getting big but to others she is still so small which she still kinda is. Things have been a bit crazy around here because my mom was gone to Alaska for 8 days and I was home alone with Madilyn. Being on my own with her was quite the challenge at first but after a couple days things began to calm down a little and run a lil smoother. I enjoyed having her all to myself but it is nice to pass her off to my mom for a lil while so i can brush my teeth or something like that, haha. I love how funny and smart Madilyn is becoming. She smiles and talks a lot and it is such an enjoyment! I don't have to feed her every 2 hours anymore because of her great weight gain so that is a load off my shoulders. Alex and I visited camp Sunday and Wednesday night which I was very skeptical about and kind of worried but it went well except it was too loud on Wednesday night and we went up to the lodge for a little while. Everyone loved her and thought she was just precious which she is..hehe! She got the hiccups Wednesday night and it was funny because it was right in the middle of the message. She is just so sweet, I just can't wait to she what kinda of girl she turns out to be. She is growing and getting so long that newborn clothes that are footed are getting to short but 0-3 months are just way too big. Good thing it is summer and footed outfits aren't really necessary right now. I am loving motherhood and I hear I am pretty good at it too..hehe!

One Month Old

One month old. There I said it. WOW! I cannot believe it. My baby girl is already a month old. I just cannot wait to see her grow up; I mean I love love love her in this tiny lil age but I truly cannot wait to see who she grows up to be and what she will be like! I know she is gonna be a beautiful blond hair, blue eyed girl but I wanna see her personality and how interesting it will be. Right now, she is just as sweet as could be with her big smiles and lil coos. I love it. It gets very stressful but like they all say, it is very rewarding. I love just to sit and stare at her whether she is awake or asleep, I love it all the same. She is just precious, all babies are but especially mine..haha. She is just a bundle of joy who loves to curl up on my chest or snuggle beside me in bed sometimes or on the sofa. She is a lil angel who just melts my heart when she stares back up at me with those deep blue sapphire eyes. She makes all my troubles go away when she grins after I kiss her chubby cheeks. She makes me feel special and worth something when she calms down when I hold her. She gives me a purpose and a meaning which is Mom. She makes me take a moment and praise God for His wonderful blessings and mighty miracles. I just cannot get enough of her and her innocence. She just sees everything as amazing and she does not even know what she is looking at or how big the world really is. Just the simplicity of a shake of a rattle or the push of a swing makes her happy. It makes you think twice about your life and what makes you happy. People always have said that children of the example and they really are and my child is only 1 month old. Imagine what I can learn in the next however many years from her.

She's cooing!!!

She's cooing a lot recently! It's too funny! It is almost like she is trying talk to us! I love it when she makes noises and such, it is just amazing! Wow, she is just a growing and I can't believe that this saturday will make a month old! She is changing and growing all the time and I just love spending ever moment with her..and so does all of my family..lol! Breastfeeding is going so much better but the every 2 hour thing is killing me. I feel like I am nursing my life away, lol. I have to try and get things done in between which is hard b/c sometimes she gets upset after nursing and I spend half of my 2 hour break calming her down. oh well. I love my baby girl though and she is sooo beautiful. My family and friends have been so very helpful and supportive and I just appreciate it so very much!!!

3 weeks already!

Yup, she will be 3 weeks tonight and I just can't believe it! I have to tell ya, she is just amazing! I know that this might be bragging just a little but I have one fabulous kid who is doing great. She is so beautiful and is just growing and changing everyday. She makes a million facial expressions everyday and she has three funny faces that I have named..turtle face, bird face, and little lizard. She is just a joy, I love it.

Having to feed her on a doctor's order schedule of every 2 hours is very tough, tiring and a lil painful. I am trying to stay tough and hang in there but it's wearing on me and it has only been like 2 1/2 days into this 3 week challenge.

Please keep up the prayers, I really appreciate it.

Bumps in the road

So I haven't been able to blog any and update because I have been battling a fever and a migraine for the past several days. Source of this is from a minor case of mastittis I have. It's been really, really rough the past few days dealing with trying to beat this fever and take care of a newborn. Fortunately for me, I have the most amazing parents who have jumped right in without me even asking or saying anything. Even my sisters have come over and helped out with Madilyn. It helps so so much but I still have to feed her which took all that was left of me which wasn't much. It is hard enough to eat and drink enough for breastfeeding but try forcing yourself to eat and drink enough when you are sick with fever and horrible headache. So because of me being sick and all, feeding is not going well and at her doctor's appointment today, her weight is up but not by much. Great, now I am stressed out even more and emotionally...a wreck. All I wanted to do was have a natural delivery either early or on time, that didn't happen quite like I wanted and now breastfeeding is not going well like I had wanted or pictured.

I was induced on Wed., May 14th at 7:00am. By 7:00pm that evening I was only 2 almost 3 cm dilated with contractions as painful as if I was 8 cm dilated. My contractions were only 1-2 minutes apart and were extremely rough because of the induction with patossin. By 7:30pm I got an epidural, took a 2 hour nap, by 10:00pm I was 10 cm and around 10:10ish I started pushing so by 10:43pm she was out.

Now breastfeeding is not going as wonderful as I would like it to. I am a first time mom and I just want things to go prefect...unrealistic I know but can you blame me? I am not prefect, but I want things to go smoothly and all these issues are giving me issues..lol.

For anybody who is reading this please do me a small favor. Please pray that God heals me and helps the whole breastfeeding process to go better. Pray He helps my lil Maddie gain a good amount of weight in the next two weeks especially. Please praise Him for my wonderful family whom He has given to me so wonderfully. Pray for Alex and I that we handle stress better and have better understanding and communication.

The Beginning

Here's how it started...

In September 2007 after my cruise and Alex's wreck, I became extremely sick. I was vomiting nonstop to a point where nothing, not even water would stay down; every medicine didn't help and the doctor was not sure what was going on. I had been sick for 9 days and had lost 15 pounds when the doctor broke the news to me privately that I was pregnant and was suffering from extreme morning sickness.Pregnant. I could not believe it; that word rung in my ears for what felt like hours. I was shocked and flabbergasted. After breaking the news to my family and to Alex, preparing and repairing began.

After lots of tears and heads hung in shame...love was shown and forgiveness was in order. After much prayer and consul forgiveness was given and decisions were needed to be made. One month later, Alex and I were engaged and 7 weeks later, Alex and I were given the most beautiful and extravagant wedding that we did not deserve and I could not have ever imagined. Even though a sin had been committed, forgiveness had been given and a life was on the way so Alex and I had to begin to prepare for the new life ahead of us. The wedding was Dec, 21st and the church had been covered in love with fake snow, trees, snowflakes...street lamps, berries and ribbon. It was a winter wonderland like no other. The bridesmaid were in red strapless dresses with fur stoles while the groomsmen were buttoned up in black tuxes and red vests. At the stage waited my handsome husband to be in a ivory vest and black tux; he watched with a smile while my wonderful daddy gracefully walked me down the aisle in my gorgeous white halter top dress with beautiful bead work and a fabulous red sash that flowed down with my train.



5 months and one week late, after a rough labor Madilyn was born. What a undeserving blessing to have such a beautiful child. The road Alex and I have been traveling on has been a hard one but it had been wrapped in prayer by so many friends, family and church members. Our marriage and our child has been and is being prayed for by so many. I know that things would have not worked out so well if it hadn't been for all those prayers. Believe in the power of prayer because my great marriage and healthy child would not have been possible without it. Also, never doubt my God for He is wonderful and giving no matter what the circumstances and He is loving even when you screw up big time.

Madilyn Taylor...2 weeks old!

So here is the first blog of many.

Today at 10:43pm Madilyn will be 2 weeks old. I think in ways time has just gone by fast but then again it kinda feels like it has been much longer than that. I can already see the changes in how she has grown and how alert she is. She makes the funniest faces and is quite the entertainer. She is such a joy to be around except when she is crying her head off because I'm not feeding her soon enough..haha.

I know she was not planned and we all were not prepared for this but I just love her so much and I have to remember, this was God's plan...He knew this was going to happen and He is gonna help us and see us through this time. I have so much trust and prayer in Him, as which I should as a CHRISTian.

Madilyn is such an amazing baby, who is making parenting quite easy for now, things could change once she gets older and we see her true personality. :)

We have had so much help, love and support from all our wonderful family and friends. I know that we are sooo truly blessed to be surrounded by all these amazing people. God has blessed us so and we don't deserve it at all. Just another reason to praise and thank my Almighty God.