8 lbs 10 oz

yeah! She's just a growing! To me she is already getting big but to others she is still so small which she still kinda is. Things have been a bit crazy around here because my mom was gone to Alaska for 8 days and I was home alone with Madilyn. Being on my own with her was quite the challenge at first but after a couple days things began to calm down a little and run a lil smoother. I enjoyed having her all to myself but it is nice to pass her off to my mom for a lil while so i can brush my teeth or something like that, haha. I love how funny and smart Madilyn is becoming. She smiles and talks a lot and it is such an enjoyment! I don't have to feed her every 2 hours anymore because of her great weight gain so that is a load off my shoulders. Alex and I visited camp Sunday and Wednesday night which I was very skeptical about and kind of worried but it went well except it was too loud on Wednesday night and we went up to the lodge for a little while. Everyone loved her and thought she was just precious which she is..hehe! She got the hiccups Wednesday night and it was funny because it was right in the middle of the message. She is just so sweet, I just can't wait to she what kinda of girl she turns out to be. She is growing and getting so long that newborn clothes that are footed are getting to short but 0-3 months are just way too big. Good thing it is summer and footed outfits aren't really necessary right now. I am loving motherhood and I hear I am pretty good at it too..hehe!

One Month Old

One month old. There I said it. WOW! I cannot believe it. My baby girl is already a month old. I just cannot wait to see her grow up; I mean I love love love her in this tiny lil age but I truly cannot wait to see who she grows up to be and what she will be like! I know she is gonna be a beautiful blond hair, blue eyed girl but I wanna see her personality and how interesting it will be. Right now, she is just as sweet as could be with her big smiles and lil coos. I love it. It gets very stressful but like they all say, it is very rewarding. I love just to sit and stare at her whether she is awake or asleep, I love it all the same. She is just precious, all babies are but especially mine..haha. She is just a bundle of joy who loves to curl up on my chest or snuggle beside me in bed sometimes or on the sofa. She is a lil angel who just melts my heart when she stares back up at me with those deep blue sapphire eyes. She makes all my troubles go away when she grins after I kiss her chubby cheeks. She makes me feel special and worth something when she calms down when I hold her. She gives me a purpose and a meaning which is Mom. She makes me take a moment and praise God for His wonderful blessings and mighty miracles. I just cannot get enough of her and her innocence. She just sees everything as amazing and she does not even know what she is looking at or how big the world really is. Just the simplicity of a shake of a rattle or the push of a swing makes her happy. It makes you think twice about your life and what makes you happy. People always have said that children of the example and they really are and my child is only 1 month old. Imagine what I can learn in the next however many years from her.

She's cooing!!!

She's cooing a lot recently! It's too funny! It is almost like she is trying talk to us! I love it when she makes noises and such, it is just amazing! Wow, she is just a growing and I can't believe that this saturday will make a month old! She is changing and growing all the time and I just love spending ever moment with her..and so does all of my family..lol! Breastfeeding is going so much better but the every 2 hour thing is killing me. I feel like I am nursing my life away, lol. I have to try and get things done in between which is hard b/c sometimes she gets upset after nursing and I spend half of my 2 hour break calming her down. oh well. I love my baby girl though and she is sooo beautiful. My family and friends have been so very helpful and supportive and I just appreciate it so very much!!!

3 weeks already!

Yup, she will be 3 weeks tonight and I just can't believe it! I have to tell ya, she is just amazing! I know that this might be bragging just a little but I have one fabulous kid who is doing great. She is so beautiful and is just growing and changing everyday. She makes a million facial expressions everyday and she has three funny faces that I have named..turtle face, bird face, and little lizard. She is just a joy, I love it.

Having to feed her on a doctor's order schedule of every 2 hours is very tough, tiring and a lil painful. I am trying to stay tough and hang in there but it's wearing on me and it has only been like 2 1/2 days into this 3 week challenge.

Please keep up the prayers, I really appreciate it.

Bumps in the road

So I haven't been able to blog any and update because I have been battling a fever and a migraine for the past several days. Source of this is from a minor case of mastittis I have. It's been really, really rough the past few days dealing with trying to beat this fever and take care of a newborn. Fortunately for me, I have the most amazing parents who have jumped right in without me even asking or saying anything. Even my sisters have come over and helped out with Madilyn. It helps so so much but I still have to feed her which took all that was left of me which wasn't much. It is hard enough to eat and drink enough for breastfeeding but try forcing yourself to eat and drink enough when you are sick with fever and horrible headache. So because of me being sick and all, feeding is not going well and at her doctor's appointment today, her weight is up but not by much. Great, now I am stressed out even more and emotionally...a wreck. All I wanted to do was have a natural delivery either early or on time, that didn't happen quite like I wanted and now breastfeeding is not going well like I had wanted or pictured.

I was induced on Wed., May 14th at 7:00am. By 7:00pm that evening I was only 2 almost 3 cm dilated with contractions as painful as if I was 8 cm dilated. My contractions were only 1-2 minutes apart and were extremely rough because of the induction with patossin. By 7:30pm I got an epidural, took a 2 hour nap, by 10:00pm I was 10 cm and around 10:10ish I started pushing so by 10:43pm she was out.

Now breastfeeding is not going as wonderful as I would like it to. I am a first time mom and I just want things to go prefect...unrealistic I know but can you blame me? I am not prefect, but I want things to go smoothly and all these issues are giving me issues..lol.

For anybody who is reading this please do me a small favor. Please pray that God heals me and helps the whole breastfeeding process to go better. Pray He helps my lil Maddie gain a good amount of weight in the next two weeks especially. Please praise Him for my wonderful family whom He has given to me so wonderfully. Pray for Alex and I that we handle stress better and have better understanding and communication.