So I haven't been able to blog any and update because I have been battling a fever and a migraine for the past several days. Source of this is from a minor case of mastittis I have. It's been really, really rough the past few days dealing with trying to beat this fever and take care of a newborn. Fortunately for me, I have the most amazing parents who have jumped right in without me even asking or saying anything. Even my sisters have come over and helped out with Madilyn. It helps so so much but I still have to feed her which took all that was left of me which wasn't much. It is hard enough to eat and drink enough for breastfeeding but try forcing yourself to eat and drink enough when you are sick with fever and horrible headache. So because of me being sick and all, feeding is not going well and at her doctor's appointment today, her weight is up but not by much. Great, now I am stressed out even more and emotionally...a wreck. All I wanted to do was have a natural delivery either early or on time, that didn't happen quite like I wanted and now breastfeeding is not going well like I had wanted or pictured.
I was induced on Wed., May 14th at 7:00am. By 7:00pm that evening I was only 2 almost 3 cm dilated with contractions as painful as if I was 8 cm dilated. My contractions were only 1-2 minutes apart and were extremely rough because of the induction with patossin. By 7:30pm I got an epidural, took a 2 hour nap, by 10:00pm I was 10 cm and around 10:10ish I started pushing so by 10:43pm she was out.
Now breastfeeding is not going as wonderful as I would like it to. I am a first time mom and I just want things to go prefect...unrealistic I know but can you blame me? I am not prefect, but I want things to go smoothly and all these issues are giving me issues..lol.
For anybody who is reading this please do me a small favor. Please pray that God heals me and helps the whole breastfeeding process to go better. Pray He helps my lil Maddie gain a good amount of weight in the next two weeks especially. Please praise Him for my wonderful family whom He has given to me so wonderfully. Pray for Alex and I that we handle stress better and have better understanding and communication.
2 comments:
I will certainly be praying for you Rachel!
And thank you for your openness on this blog. It is really touching. I have appreciated reading your entries.
Rachel I have never been a mom and never could imagine the stress and heartache. But girl know that I am truly praying for you and Alex. I also know we have never been close or anything just mainly acquantinces but Know that if you need to me for anything I can do even if it's picking you both up and taking you somewhere I will. But i know you have family and friends for that Just know that I am willing to help you and alex through this even if it's just by prayer! Love ya girl.
Chasity Evans
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